Welcome November!

Since it is November and Thanksgiving is coming soon I wanted to blog everyday about something I am thankful for..

Today I am thankful for the gospel...

I am so grateful for my membership in the

Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints..

I know that without a doubt that the gospel is what makes me happy.

It is my motivation in life.

I know that there is a bigger plan for me.

I know that I have a Savior who loves me..

and He knows me.

I know that all good things in my life come as a blessing from the gospel.

I am grateful for the testimony that I have..

I am grateful for a gospel that lifts me in hard times and makes my good times better..

I am grateful for a religion that teaches me what really is important in life..

Happy November!

Life is Hard

This week has been hard... Hard actually doesn't begin to describe the week..

I am not writing this to complain but to get thoughts out..

I have had so many thoughts and they only seem to make sense if I write them down

After what I thought was good.. Skyler and I broke up...

It was hard because I knew I was going to marry him..

There was not one part of my life that I couldn't see him in..

I am not sure about things now..

I know that he has been through hell the past year and has dealt with some incredibly hard things in his life.

I wish though that he could see who he is now, not who he was

He is incredible.. I wish I could tell him that..

I got a blessing Tuesday night..

These are the things that I know now

I know that my Savior is very aware of me and Skyler...

The Lord know that whatever happens will be best for both of us no matter what it is.

That Skyler DOES need time alone to figure things out..

He need to adjust to being home without trying to figure out a relationship and if I am even what he wants.

Skyler needs to realize that his past is exactly that and that I have never had one bad thought about him and I never will I know I don't know everything but I know who he is now and he needs to realize that he is a great guy..

I know it will take time for him to get back to normal life not just the week he has been home but time..

I am don't know what the future holds

I don't know if I will end up with Skyler..

I am not counting on it but I will be honest something in me keeps telling me its not over yet..

That might mean we are friends... It might mean we never talk again...

It might mean that in a few months we can try things again..

I honestly don't know

But I know I need to move on with life now

I need to do the things I am supposed to do

I need to date other people as much as a don't want too..

I don't doubt the promptings I have received regarding Skyler..

I don't doubt the things I was taught meeting with President Hansen and through the blessing I received..

I know that agency sucks sometimes and that things change....

I don't know what the future holds

But I do know that I will be ok no matter the outcome..

I know that Skyler will be ok

I pray that he can figure out the things he needs to for his happiness.

That no matter what we can be friends..

Maybe I do just need to move on and forget about him and what we had..

I don't know..

I know the questions and confusion I have will be answered in time and that things will end up how they are supposed to be..

I just am working on having the faith to move forward..

I can do hard things...

I will be here for Skyler as a friend when he needs it..

I am willing to date others and to open my heart to new relationships..

I am not closing the door to Skyler...

I am moving on with my life..

I am happy

I know its ok to miss him, he was my best friend...

I am willing to accept the Lord's will for me no matter what it is

I will be patient in all trails and learn what I can from them

I will forgive and forget the hurt I feel..

I will not lose hope or doubt things

I don't really know if I made sense at all but I felt better after writing it...

I don't know who will read this or what your opinions are

I don't know if you are with it or not but it is how I feel

It is what I think..

I still love Skyler and I do hope we can be friends..

Whatever else happens will only come out it time..

I can honestly say I know that I will be happy and will have a happy life no matter what happens..

Ok,, There is on more little thing that has happened! :)

In May I met Skyler..

Actually we had been talking online for a few months before.

Anyways, in May he came on on leave from the Army and we really hit it off!

He treats me so well! I think sometimes better than I deserve!

He will be home from Iraq in September, I can't wait!

Luckily we get to talk a lot!

Here are some of my favorite things about him

1) He treats me fantastic

2) He is sacrificing so much to server our country

3) He make me want to be a better person

4) He is caring and kind

5) He listens to me

6) He has awesome bowling skills! :)

7) Whenever I need him he is there..

8) He is motivated

9) He has a strong testimony of the Gospel

10) He is just fantastic!

The past few months

So much has happened these past few months since my last post!

In May Michelle, Aimee, Cameron, and I went to California!

We decided we needed a little break

to Disneyland!

Me, Michelle and Aimee

Cameron and Michelle in the teacup

Mickey's car

We had a lot of fun. We spent Friday night and Saturday at Disneyland and California Adventure. Sunday we attended church and then walked on the pier and beach.

Monday we came home.. It was a fun weekend trip!

Also, in May school got out! I can't believe it is already summer!

In June I went to Washington with Beccah..

It is one of my favorite places!

We spent a few days in Moses Lake with her grandparents then went to Vancouver to see her sister Sarah..

While in Vancouver we visited Tillamook and the Beach... Here are a few pics from that trip!

Also in June our branch went to Yellowstone... We had a lot of fun!

For school we started clinic. It has been busy but fun.. We have 4 1/2 weeks left!

Easter....

I will post pics this week of the fabulous Easter party at Aunt Marilyn's that was incredibly fun as usual!

But since today is Easter I thought I'd write more of my thought on that...

I am so grateful for a living Savior!

I have been talking to a few friends lately about the atonement...

What a wonderful thing that is!

What other power can completely change a life!

Today I was reading the account of the crucifixion in Luke..

I think the part that really struck me today was after Christ was on the cross..

One of the two men also being hung was mocking Christ..

Saying that if he really was Christ then h should save himself and them as well..

The other man being crucified rebuking the man tells him that they were indeed guilty but Christ was an innocent man.. Then asks Christ to remember him in His kingdom..

Christ's reply was simple.."today shalt thou be with me in paradise"

It is the same with us today.. Christ is there for us...

All we need to do is Come unto Him..

Once we truly do that we will be the repentant type of person we need to be

Turning our lives over to the Savior and becoming as He is..

That is what the atonement is about..

Becoming a little better each day...

As we turn to Christ we too can be with Him in paradise!

Happy Easter!

Wow it has been a long time since I updated this..

I tend to get distracted pretty easy! I always just find new blogs to read

or things to do..

Lately I have had a lot on my mind..

I have been swamped with school and work, it seems so overwhelming at times

but it will all be worth it someday!

I don't really know what to think or do about a few current situations that I have recently became apart of.

Sometimes I just wish I had all the answers! Wouldn't that be nice!

I just wish that I knew the next step I am supposed to/need to take.

I know what I want but I am not sure how to make it happen!

This post a realize is incredibly random but that is honestly how my thoughts have been these past few weeks especially today..

I wish I just knew what other people thought or how other peoples minds work..

I do however have a few things to look forward to

Spring Break~The first week of April...

I am going to LA and Vegas..

Disneyland~ The first weekend in May

Summer Vacation!~ May 27th is the last day of school!!!

hmmmm and hopefully a few other adventures!

November 7

I am so thankful to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

I know that the gospel is what brings me happiness.

I know that by following the teachings of the gospel that I can become a much better person.

I know that we are led by a living prophet today, President Thomas S. Monson.

I know that Jesus Christ lives and that He loves me and you!

I know that there is power is prayer and in the atonement.

I am grateful for the Book of Mormon.

I know that the book is true!

I love the gospel!

Want to know more???

www.mormon.org